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The Most Exhausting Time of Life

On the road home this evening, I saw some stupid motorcycle driver ran toward an Aqua truck which - obviously - in the position of turning right and apparently just waiting for the right moment to enter its warehouse yard. What I meant by the 'right moment' was the moment where people, especially motorbike drivers gave it a chance to finish its business, instead of kept driving between the empty space of the truck and its yard.

Alas, that motorcycle crashed into that truck and found its poor fate. Although it's a good thing its driver and passenger were still alive, I presumed.

Honestly, sometimes I was that stupid driver.

Time is trying to catch me, on the road, I need to finish it quick before boredom and sleepiness swallows me away.

On the long, unexciting road to the office, I'm trying to fight my exhaustion.

The only part that made me feel good every day on the road to office was this tiny road path filled with trees on both sides. Now it's filled with construction materials instead. It's been months but the highway repairment has not yet find its closure, I suppose.

As well as the underground project along the road near my house, rather than months, it's been years already!

And that's the road where the previous stupidity I wrote to you happened.

I lived in East Java 'till about 2 years ago. I disliked Sidoarjo's road quality. But tell you what, Bekasi is much worse. You got bad roads in Sidoarjo, in Bekasi you got extra hole traps. Roadsides where the underground project took place never had been restored properly. People are not that comfortable riding on this road. The hole traps are everywhere on this road! It's not just uncomfortable... It's dangerous!

Lightning is also much worse in some parts of this road. Somebody got trampled on by a truck because it's super dark a few months ago.

Is the world exhausted, just like me? Even if it's trying hard not to look like that by humoring itself it's better to be like this...

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